Tummy Ache

Whenever I am not a barista in the morning, I like to sleep in. It’s a breath of freshness to wake up at 8:47 am instead of 6:00 am. Why is it, though, that I feel less rested and more stressed. Oh- probably because of anxiety.

Anxiety is stupid. Anxiety for me is rethinking every single conversation I’ve had and identifying the things I did wrong. How I said something might have hurt someone’s feelings. If I didn’t hold the door open, they probably think I am an evil person. Or, believing that literally no one likes you. Anxiety is stupid, because for those who don’t have it can only rationalize with “why do you care?”

What’s worse is not knowing why you care. What’s worse is waking up after a beautiful, restful night to having a tummy ache because you feel guilty for doing your hair in the morning. What’s worse is having anxiety.